GAH!!! uh.... i felt like writing a journal today XD i know that probably no-one is going to read this........... uh..... yea. SO i'm going to be laying out my problems to this thing.... journal.... here i go:

Ok, my boyfriend isn't making an effort at all! i've kinda wanted him to try harder, but i haven't told him. it's hard to tell him!! i know i'm the one at fault, because i asked him, and didn't really care. i guess i kinda just wanted a guy. One might say 'if he doesn't care/if you don't care, then break it off' but that's the thing. i'm going to be really sad if he just say's 'ok' like, it's going to hurt, a lot. But if i break up with him, and he's sad, i'm going to feel Horrible. GAH!! i have no clue what to do.